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(no subject) [Oct. 23rd, 2011|08:54 pm]
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(no subject) [Sep. 15th, 2011|09:29 pm]
[mood |bouncybouncy]

Can I just say....?

I am loving life right now.

Except for the shut off notice I just got for the electric bill..

My new job is awesome! I love the hours, love the people.

I feel as though I am becoming closer with my mother. She has turned herself around for the good, and I am amazingly proud of her.

I am so grateful for the opportunity's that have come my way. For example, everything I get to do with the girls at the bridal shop. I GET TO MODEL. Who would have ever thought a chunky girl with a large dimple and crooked teeth would ever get to say that? I get to be an assistant to Amy. I get paid money to walk around with a bag all day and watch her do amazing work. I get to help women find their dream dress. I just love every opportunity they have given me, and I am so grateful. I think I found what I want to do with the rest of my life. Its too bad I dont think i'll ever have the money to break into the bridal world.

Amy, Amanda and Pam have done so much for me! They are providing a candy bar/buffet at the wedding, free of charge! Thats HUNDREDS of dollars. They made me my custom shoes for the wedding, bought me my veil, my head piece, discounted my dress...I really wish i had the right words to say to thank them.

Can I also just say..That i have the best Maid of Honor ever? She's done so much for me...She has A MILLION things going on, but still manages to have time to talk to me, especially about all my stupid wedding stuff? I am so grateful for her in my life, and having her stand next to me when I marry Chris..

Speaking of...

My shower is next sunday, I cannot wait!

I get to marry my best friend soon!

I cannot sleep anymore. These next two months need to hurry up! :):):):)
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(no subject) [Jul. 21st, 2011|06:54 pm]
[mood |relievedrelieved]


work still sucks asshole. Alot.
I have been looking for a new job since the whole hash out wish Denise. I had an interview last friday, offered a second interview for monday, which i ended up turning down, it just felt shady and the hours weren't going to work. (A doctor that runs three hours behind? no thanks) So then, i got a call for a OBGYN in Troy...My interview was originally scheduled for this coming monday, but I got pissed off at work, and told them that I had an interview Wednesday morning, and went to the interview instead. It went GREAT, as well as I think an interview should go. Hours were awesome. I think the only thing that is/will hold me back from the job, was them not being able to contact my current asshole job. As much as i hate the place, i'd rather them not know about me wanting to leave, so i still have a job. Well, today i didn't hear back from them, kind of disappointing, but it has only been 1 day!

Sitting at dinner tonight, being semi-bummed about 1. Not getting a call about the job, and 2. Not getting the house we thought we were going to get..I get a phone call from a job that I thought I was a perfect candidate for, and pays well, and is AWESOME. It's at RMA of Michigan. REPRODUCTIVE MEDICAL ASSOCIATES! Which means, BIG MONEY! Well, maybe not that big, but its pretty muchall cash pay, and its like $40k to walk in the door there. So, I go for the interview tomorrow. I hope I nail it. I cannot wait to tell Women First to FUCK OFF..

Then-I come home from dinner, and find a email with my flower quotes and pictures! I recently inquired to a Day of Coordinator for the wedding. She also does flowers. They are BEAUTIFUL flowers, and 1/2 the price of what i'd pay at a florist...(but it still more then i was going to pay for Chris' aunt to do them, but she backed out, because she forgot it was the week before thanksgiving, please) Anyway. I love talking to this lady, she gets me excited for the wedding and completely puts my mind at ease. She will set up the hall before, and take down the hall after, unlimited phone calls, emails....She organizes my guest list, and calls all my vendors to confirm EVERYTHING. She doesn't charge that much either. Which is amazing.

Getting all these calls for interviews, and people telling me how "impressive" my resume is, and now the wedding coordinator calming all my fears, and taking control of things, is REALLY starting to make me look forward to the wedding. Maybe its because I will know that I won't have to deal with these women first bitches on my wedding day.

Anyway, that's all..im about to go ZUMBA!
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(no subject) [Jun. 18th, 2011|10:45 pm]
[mood |annoyedannoyed]

I feel like life is a endless spiral of stupid motions lately.

Last weekend, I was in an amazing place. Excited about the wedding, everything is falling into place.

This week, I'm nauseous.

I went off on the stupid bitch at work that hasn't support me, or my engagment from day one. Got written up, fine whatever, if thats what it takes to let me say EVERYTHING i have ever wanted to say to her, fine, write me the fuck up.

But now, the STUPID bitch is quitting. and everyone is blaming me.

This women in 53 god-damned years ago, starting shit with a 25 year old.

EVERYONE at work knows, EVERYTHING I said was true. She ALWAYS talks shit about me, and my wedding, and then she plays the fucking victim infront of the bosses at work, says "how hurt" she was that she didn't get a save the date to my wedding. FUCK YOU BITCH.

I'm ready to throw in the towel on anyone from work coming to my wedding, and I think that would make things alot better. Less drama, and less money. However, my work environment would be shitty. Everyone is already hostile around me, ALL THE TIME, so this would only make it worse.

All I want to do is get a new job, and move on with my life. Get excited for the day I marry my best friend.
We have one car, so i'm basically stuck.

I really think I need to start back on medication. My side hurts more then ever. I have a headache constantly. I haven't lost a pound, and I think its because of stress. All I want to do is sleep. I really thought I was at a better place in my life, and have been off medication since OCT 2009. I don't want to go back on it, but if its going to help...whatever.

I sat there watching "Rob the Web Guy"'s wedding tonight. Thinking in my head...he or his wife Chelsea, has nothing but amazing people who support them and their marriage...why can't it be the same for me? what the hell did I do to deserve this?

If i didn't have over 9000 wrapped up in this wedding already, im sure we'd elope.

Oh...not to mention, My brother decides to get a brain tumor. Has a seizure at work, gets a CT, has a brain tumor, then gets sent for more test, and walks out the freaking hospital because he waited to long.
To add another thing onto the list, he will no longer talk to me. I have no idea what the fuck is going on with him.
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(no subject) [Nov. 4th, 2010|08:23 pm]
who cares if when i get home, i go to bed? What's the point of being awake?
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one year [Mar. 12th, 2009|10:24 pm]
It still feels like it was yesterday.
It still hurts as bad as it did one year ago.
I miss you grandpa.

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(no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2009|07:39 pm]
my thoughts and prayers go out to the Tanghe family today..

thinking of you.....
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PAIN! [Dec. 8th, 2008|07:40 pm]
[mood |soresore]

I am very grateful that i found a dentist that is going to take care of me...

but at the same time, ive been popping pills for the pain...

last week, i had 2 fillings taken out, drilled down my tooth, and put back in..the aftermath hurt..:(

today, i had 1 tooth taken out, and 2 more fillings, and i just popped my first vicodin 750..

next week, 1 more tooth and 2 more fillings..

all this drilling, and all these pain meds. I know i shouldn't be complaining, i got the Vicodin! but, i hate being in pain...at least its gonna be all worth it in the long run.
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(no subject) [Oct. 14th, 2008|05:27 pm]
[mood |discontentdiscontent]

so today was a little depressing...

Not to mention, it was my first day back from vacation..but

on the way to work, i saw a girl get hit by a car..as a matter of fact, i was right behind the lady who hit her. luckily she was okay.


I had to bring back a patient today,happy and jittery like always, knowing that she or he husband had no idea what was in store for them in the next few minutes. She has cancer. nice.
29 years old, and will have to have her cervix out. Just started trying to have a family too. That will never happen.

I just hope that there is a oncologist out there that can give her options on what she needs to do, so she can bare a child, and so she can be cancer free.

Why does all this have to happen? why do young beautiful people have to get hurt? diagnosed with life threatening diseases?

horrible. horrible.

i have a headache and i have to go and visit my grandmother.

Grandpa's birthday was yesterday...too bad he wasnt around to blow out the candles...
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you wonder why ive stuck around for 11 years? [Aug. 3rd, 2008|10:31 pm]
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